I like to think of myself as an organised person, I make a living organising people were I work and I like to think myself good at my job. The thing is at the moment I’m feeling rather disorganised and it is an unsettling feeling. I feel out of control, out of my depth and bouncing from one messed up job to the next.
School and extra circular activities
There seems to be something on at the school everyday this week and has been for the past few weeks and I’m exhausted trying to remember what Roo and Tigger need to bring in, what they are wearing and whether they need any lunch. Today for example, I stood outside Roo’s school for 20 minutes waiting for her to come out, only to be told that she was at athletics club (which I thought had finished last week). Not only had I stood and waiting like a prize idiot but she had no gym kit with her, lucky it turns out that they were just having a party but all the same I should have known she was at club.
I pride myself on being efficient at work, I know my role standing on my head – I don’t mean to be big headed or anything but I am good at my job. It is a role I have been in for almost 8 years so I know the system, I know how to get things done and I know how to deal with idiots on the telephone. Things however are changing behind the scenes, meetings are taking place which us minions are not privy to. Next year will mark some big changes and it is unsettling, I am trying to work out whether it is best to ride out the storm or jump ship which means I am only giving 75% at work and it doesn’t sit well in my conscience.
It’s December 15th and I’ve only written out Christmas cards to those people I knew I had to. I haven’t written or sent the ones that need to be posted. I haven’t bought special individual cards to those special people in my life, instead they will be getting a generic card from a pile of random ones I have had left over from last year (or possibly the years before).
Thankfully I was organised earlier in the year as I have all my Christmas presents bought, I haven’t however gotten round to tackling the wrapping. A task I usually enjoy but this year I have not got any enthusiasm for it. I wander past the wrapping paper and tags in the dining room and think ‘oh I’ll do that tomorrow’, however tomorrow turns into the next day and so on – before I know it, it will be Christmas Eve and I’ll be in a blind panic.
Boo Roo and Tigger Too
My faithful blog, I seem to have a love/hate relationship with you at the moment. I have so much waiting in the wings to share but their doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day and the mental capacity to write anything that is worth anyone else reading. I have some amazing reviews, tales of family life and such like to share with you and I promise to kick myself up the bum and get things published.
So my loyal readers, compers, brands, family and friends…
We apologise for the delay