It’s easy to think that the past six weeks in lockdown is just an extended summer holiday. With the weather improving, the lighter evenings and spending time in the garden. I can fool myself into thinking that we have just pressed pause on the remote control of life. Of course, we haven’t done that. The world to some extent is still continuing outside our little comfort zone. Whilst there are things that I am beginning to miss from the outside world, I don’t feel that we are in a position to lift the lockdown and go about our business as we once did.
The past week I’ve felt a little lacklustre, feeling out of sorts but unable to put my finger on the problem. It could be one of many things or a combination of them all. The sense of not being quite good enough, somewhat of a failure and a dose of guilt all sandwiched in there for good measure, Despite my ‘meh’ state we’ve had a fairly good week and I think we’ve got this life in lockdown.
As the days and weeks of social distancing and lockdown pass by it is easy to think about the things we are missing out on. The things we have had to cancel or postpone. The people we haven’t seen in weeks or even longer. However, there are positives, silver linings if you will to the current situation.
The announcement came this week that lockdown measures would need to continue for a further three weeks. Looking across social media as this news filtered through I saw a mixed bag of reactions . Some wondering how they can manage for another three weeks. Something thinking that the measures should be easing by now. Then the others who were not surprised by the extension.
After finding last week difficult and struggling with the realisation that plans had changed. I approached this week reflecting on why I’d struggled the week before. With the obvious answer of unrealistic expectations staring me in the face.
Sleep is important to me, very important. It is something that can have a dramatic effect on the rest of my life. It is, however, something that doesn’t always come easy to me.
This week I have struggled to get through the days. Whilst I confess I am enjoying staying at home with the children. I have struggled mentally as this past week we should have been joying a family holiday in Somerset. Before climbing aboard a ferry to explore Guernsey for a long weekend.
The garden is one area of our home that we have always wanted to make more of. At the moment it is just an open space for the children to play in. Which we are very lucky to have, especially as our last home only had a small yard for them to play in. With hopes that the better weather is on it’s way along with time on our hands I thought I’d put together a garden bucket list of all the things we’d like to achieve.
Just as we were all coming round to the idea of the social distancing measures, further lockdown measures where announced earlier in the week. Whilst the stay home, stay safe message had been shared and shared again. Now it is something that we MUST adhere to. Only venturing out to get essential supplies, medication and to travel to work (which cannot be completed from home). As well as being allowed to exercise once a day, as a family (household) but not to meet with others – and still maintaining the 2-metre social distancing space.
I have to confess that until a week or so ago the current Coronavirus was just something I heard about on the news. Something that was happening else where in the world. Which whilst the stories and coverage was awful to hear about, I did have a slightly relaxed approach to it. After all, it wasn’t something that was happening here, about to affect the UK, friends and family.