Doubt {Word of the week}

At long last I have finally gotten round to joining in with The Reading Residence Word of the Week linky. 

The Reading Residence

Reading from the sidelines each week to see just how different everyone’s lives truly are, whether they are sharing something happy, something sad, an accomplishment or just another normal week.

This week has been a little difficult for me personally, no major crisis to report or anything like that, just a week filled with…

Doubt - Word of the week

Doubt ~ verb (used without an object)

  • to be uncertain about something; be undecided in opinion or belief

Doubt ~ noun

  • a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature of something
  • distrust
  • a state of affairs such as to occasion uncertainty
  • Obsolete fear; dread
Blogging

This week has seen me look at blogging in a new light.  I have been blogging for almost three years and whilst I have had some amazing opportunities I have become to doubt my blog. My little corner of the internet. My outlet, or at least it once was but I feel as though I have lost my voice, my reason for blogging in the first place.

Work

Whilst on the whole I love my job, I feel it is something that I excel at however this week after our usual monthly meeting I began to doubt whether my work and that of my colleagues is valued by those higher up the management chain.  Our concerns and issues are brushed off and no real action comes from it all so why do we bother? why do we try so hard for our patients and their relatives?

Life

Earlier this week I woke feeling a little shaky, after the school run I attempted to carry on my day as normal however it was clear that I was not myself.  In truth I was anxious, doubtful of my every action.  I sat down took some deep breaths (had a little cry – as you do) and attempted to pull myself together, however after a few weeks of restless nights and weird dreams it would appear that my body and my mind are not in balance and I can’t quite work out why.

Weightloss

I have recently started my weightloss journey with Slimming World, a change of lifestyle.  I have seen some amazing results from people who have attended Slimming World, however I have seen those who have attended for weeks and weeks to have only lost, then gained, lost and gained again.  My weightloss is slow (which is better in the long run) and I have doubt in my will power as to whether I will be a success story or a serial dieter.

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  1. Jayne- Sticky Mud and Belly Laughs
    May 23, 2014 / 5:26 pm

    I think we all have doubts at some point and they can sometimes feel like they are bringing us down. I hope next week brings you lots of positivity and you find the balance you need :). #WotW

  2. May 23, 2014 / 5:16 pm

    Sounds like a tough week, Sarah. I do hope that the doubts are prompting reflection that lead to some positive outcomes for you. I’ve not even been blogging for a year, and frequently step back and doubt myself, so I can totally relate to that. And I’d imagine if you’re doubting blogging and work, it would put your mind and body out of sync, as these are huge parts of your life. I hope you can resolve it soon x
    Thanks very much for joining in with and sharing with #WotW

  3. May 23, 2014 / 7:20 pm

    Sounds like you are quite hard on yourself. I hope you can find a bit more confidence and then hopefully you will feel more positive. Good luck with Slimming World x

  4. May 23, 2014 / 7:44 pm

    Hugs! Sounds like a rough week for you!
    Doubt is an awful thing…..I hope it passes soon x

  5. May 23, 2014 / 8:15 pm

    I know its so seflish to say that I thought that I am the only one who goes home after a school run overwhelmed. The crying and trying to pull myself together so that I will look normal again when I pick my son up. I thought its just me. After reading your post.. I am so wrong. #WOTW

  6. May 23, 2014 / 8:42 pm

    Sounds like a bit of an anxiety attack/crisis of confidence honey. I know it’s easy said but meditation could help – just focusing the mind on the bigger picture and seeing that all these worries stem from your perceptions of other people’s views and opinions when all that really matters is doing what makes you happy and surrounding yourself with people you love. X #WotW

  7. May 24, 2014 / 10:02 am

    We all have doubts at times, I guess it must be human nature! Don’t doubt your blog – it’s wonderful! And we’re in the slimming world boat together – this time next year, think how amazing we’ll feel going to BML is skinny new frocks!

  8. May 24, 2014 / 10:25 am

    Oh love what a rotten week. It’s so frustrating when things at work aren’t progressing the way you’d like.
    Blogging you mustn’t worry about. We all go through phases of not loving our blogs – I find that stepping back for a while and concentrating on other things in my life soon has me re-inspired.
    As for anxiety, that’s a bugger. You can very easily get yourself into a pattern that’s hard to break. Can you make a change somewhere that feels productive? Often a small change to lifestyle or routine can just break the cycle of thougth patterns, which helps you move away from the automatic thinking that leads to all the stress.
    Hugs, and hope you turn a corner soon x

  9. May 24, 2014 / 10:34 am

    Sounds like our week was a bit alike. Maybe is just hormones so hang in there. Blogging can be tough sometimes but i love your blog and i can’t say that you lost your voice. Regarding the diet i am on a diet too and although i am losing i am too scared that i will give up…hang in there it will get better i promise.

  10. Stacey Corrin
    May 24, 2014 / 11:08 am

    So sorry to see that you’ve been having a hard time. Although I can sympathise with feeling anxious. I had an unexpected panic attack the other day, just from hanging the washing out! I think when these things happen it’s good to sit down and reflect (and cry if we have to!). Hope things seem better for you soon.

  11. May 24, 2014 / 1:03 pm

    Sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. Maybe it’s time for a rest before carrying on, just know that I believe you can do all these things and then believe it yourself and you can do it.

    But then I don’t think you need to do sliming world because you look great. Best of luck with it all.

  12. May 24, 2014 / 7:16 pm

    Try not to be so hard on yourself 🙁 so sorry you are feeling this way. xx

  13. May 24, 2014 / 9:05 pm

    Oh lovely, it sounds like the world’s just collided for you. I hope you find ‘you’ again soon, I wish you could see what we all see and don’t worry. There is no doubting your capability and passion- as a mum, blogger, and for the NHS. Hope you take the time to regroup. x

  14. May 24, 2014 / 9:05 pm

    Oh lovely, it sounds like the world’s just collided for you. I hope you find ‘you’ again soon, I wish you could see what we all see and don’t worry. There is no doubting your capability and passion- as a mum, blogger, and for the NHS. Hope you take the time to regroup. x

  15. May 25, 2014 / 6:34 am

    Sounds like you’ve had a tough week. We all have have doubts sometimes lovely, I hope you can get some rest this half term and feel more positive soon ((hugs)) x

  16. May 25, 2014 / 7:42 am

    Aww what a horrible feeling. I totally understand where you are coming from though both at work and at home and it is so hard to just suck it up and get on with it! Good luck with your Slimming World journey just have faith in yourself that no matter what you will try your hardest as you can’t do any better than that xx

  17. Samantha R
    May 25, 2014 / 9:30 am

    sounds like a tough time, hope you can overcome these doubts

  18. May 25, 2014 / 11:30 am

    The best thing about a week like that is that it is over. I hope next week is better!! x

  19. May 25, 2014 / 2:54 pm

    Fingers crossed for a better week next week. Big hug x

  20. Anya from Older Single Mum and The Healer
    May 25, 2014 / 7:37 pm

    Oh poo. Sorry you’re feeling so undervalued and underappreciated. Hope you’ve managed to have a break away from everything over the Bank Holiday and are able to come back with a different perspective and give yourself a big fat new word that’ll help you through XX

  21. May 25, 2014 / 7:41 pm

    Don’t doubt your blog – it’s so lovely. Sounds like you just need a rest. Slimming can take a real toll on your body, even if you are doing it slowly and it might be your bodies way of saying to slow down for a bit.

  22. May 25, 2014 / 8:36 pm

    I’m so sorry that you are having a tough time. Doubt is a terrible thing and it gnaws away at you and does make you doubt everything. Things will get better I’m sure.

  23. May 25, 2014 / 9:15 pm

    So sorry doubt is plaguing you. All you can do is your best. Try to stop worrying if that’s enough xxxx

  24. May 26, 2014 / 6:41 am

    I hope this week will be a less negative one and you can turn it around.I think when it seems all aspects of our life aren’t going to plan it can be disheartening.You need to look at each one and write some positives down so you can concentrate on those.

  25. Emma Chester
    May 26, 2014 / 6:37 pm

    Talking about things is half the battle xx

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